Merry Christmas Ya'll!

I know it's late but oh well... this week was kinda fun my sister came home for the the holidays and we kinda had just a "chillax" week. She brought all the kids over and baked some Christmas cookies they had some fun even Reno with his smartass attitude had fun. Here are some pictures...



Oh on Wednesday I started my late shift at work starting at 3:30 to midnight, it's crazy I'm just glad it's only for a couple weeks because I would not be able to do that. Anyway hope you all had a great Christmas!

Christmas is a time to think about others

This is my sad little Christmas Tree that Rosie and I decorated.
So Saara's church did this thing that's real nice, they kinda adopted a family to try to make this Christmas very special. They were some Asian family that came over because the wife needed an open heart surgery of some sort and they didn't really have the money to actually stay. The kid they have is 10 years old but doesn't know English at all so she's in Kindergarten and the dad isn't able to work here because he's not a citizen.
Well what they did is just to buy them gifts and surprise them and bought them a tree and many presents there was a list that they've created on things they needed and wanted. I wanted to help so I bought some things for them too like some clothes and just some basic toiletries. We decided today will be the day to surprise them at their apartment, the apartment was in a shady side of Des Moines. They had neighbors you can hear arguing and it was kinda scary but when we arrived at the door with presents and a Christmas tree they were thrilled. It was very difficult because they didn't know English and the father seems like he has a lot to say but really couldn't because of the language barrier. It was a good feeling but it was kind of odd because we completely just came without them knowing but knowing that they'll have a great Christmas just makes all the better.

I Want a Macbook Pro!

This is what I'm trying to save up for a macbook pro I've been wanting one for some time now. This is where my tax money will go towards when I get that. I need one of these now! AHH!!

Another Work Blog

So they're starting CDMA training for Sprint/Nextel Blackberry Support here (We usually take the iDEN side (NEXTEL Walkie Talkie)). I'm already involved in the CDMA network and have been doing a lot of callbacks trying to own the call instead of having it go to another call center somewhere in Kentucky. I don't know if being involved in this will lead me to other things because working at EDS doesn't seem to be a place to progress. It's like they make it such a big thing to do another project in an area making you feel a little bit high above the regular agents on the floor when in all actuality you're getting paid exactly the same with more work on your back.

At this job they've had me do many things here while having walk the floor helping other agents, being involved in this other inbound call helpline for the regulars, and calling back callers that gave a low score to one of our agents in a questionnaire they had after their call to Sprint. They know I know the technical aspect of this but it seems never good enough because I'm always taken back to taking regular inbound calls like a regular agent. I really refuse to kiss anyone's ass and I just rather be recognized for the work I give but it's hard because I don't feel they give enough motivation to keep me going because of all the history I had. I don't know what to do I'm going to stay there and see how this turns out because CDMA is entirely new to this call center and there are more opportunities, I guess...

Oh SHIT

So my last blog I was telling you about just having fun with this chick that I knew was already involved in a relationship... well I emailed this chick on Saturday and I guess they've fought over it and he hit her. What the fuck? This is some serious shit I know it's not me to blame because I know that this has happened before but now it seems that I should do something. I wasn't even wanting to take her away I was just doing this for my own benefit and this has happened. I feel a little of my fault but I know I shouldn't, no one deserves to be abused. I told a few people but never really had any assistance in the matter, I'm a little nervous about this situation, sad thing is that they live with his Grandma and she knows about this too. Why does shit like this happen?

She's always said that their relationship sucks because he's so abusive and yelling at her for small stuff. Won't let her out of the house while he's out and about probably fucking around with other girls. Girls are so stupid sometimes this is why females are looked down upon because a lot of them don't fight for themselves needing males to be their leader. I don't even want to be with her now I just want to be a friend and get her out of this. I need help I guess...

A Little Fun

So I'm in an interesting position, so I know for a while now that this girl had a little something for me and I know she has a boyfriend that she's been with for almost a year. I invited her over while "he" was at a bar across the street, it's a gamble but I didn't care. It was funny cuz he was calling nonstop, it got late I walked her to her car and she left to pick him up from the bar. I don't know what to do with this... suggestions?

Black Friday

So everyone has finished their Thanksgiving dinner and what to do now after a little nap? Let's go shopping! Crazy here in Des Moines, Iowa, Jordan Creek Mall was opened at midnight. The thing was I didn't have any moneyto shop I just wanted to see the turnout for it and it was a good one because this mall was packed. It's busier than a normal Saturday and it's the middle of the night! It was seriously too much we just went through the place and left, we werent going to purchase anything lines were long for where store. Well I was hoping to see some kind of rudeness or something like a small fight or something cuz that'll be interesting but whatever. I'm so happy I don't work retail anymore I'd be so sick of the endless Christmas music and crazy shoppers trying to grab their purchase for their bratty kids. Oh well I need to get some sleep I'm working tomorrow, or I mean later today.


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Happy Turkey Day!

Let's all celebrate us taking this land away from the Natives and make our country more obesed... Just kidding I don't care about that, that history but it seems that some Native Americans are still upset about "the white man" have taken their land. Yeah they've done that but it's not like it wouldn't happen later on anyway. This is a pretty big continent and the whole continent isn't going to live in Teepee's and hunting with bows and arrows. I get how some are still living like this in smaller countries because that's all they know. Oh well...

Oh... and Happy Birthday Josh!

Groomsmen

So I was asked to to be a groomsman in my friend's wedding. It's weird I've never been part of a wedding in a while, the last time I've been in one was to be a ring bear at my uncle's wedding. Usually in weddings it's just some big celebration it never includes a walk down the aisle. I didn't think I was this close to this guy to be one of them but hey it's cool I like Jim and I'm grateful to be asked. I just got measured by the place and the only request I had was to be walking with a bride's mate that is shorter than I am.

I'm glad to not be the best man because I wouldn't know what to plan for a bachelor party. His fiance is supposedly "liberal" and very left but she kind of have a mind very conservative of what I know of her. Don't get me wrong she's very cool I like her a lot I'm glad he found her because she's cool and they have an awesome kid together already but she has some weird issues when it comes to sex. It's weird she doesn't like movies that contain any kind of nudity or anything that pertains to sex it seems. She's not ok strip clubs or any movies that contain even a clip of a nipple or something. Weird thing is that she claims she's a bi-sexual...

Even if I'm not the Best Man I'm going to try to persuade them to participate in some kind of send off to no more single life and try to get to some strip club or something that includes the opposite sex. I don't want it to be boring and just play video games or some shit I want it to include lots of drinking and girls, that's what it's all about isn't it!?

This subject brings me to politics a little, I am so Left that it's ridiculous and I know that if I get people to believe what I do that the world would run amok we need the other side (conservatives) to even things out. I'm completely ok with abortion, homosexuals, free speech, and everything in between. I don't have a religion I'm a complete Athiest, I don't think there is a god and when I tell people that it's a shocker I don't understand it's like gays coming out of the closet or something, people think of you different like "you're wrong that's not the way to live your life" whatever I'm doing the way I do, this "god" never has changed my life or there is no real fact that I know of that would make me believe in this "god."

New obsession

I Love Esmee Denters! I've been watching her on youtube for the longest time and it's crazy that she's going places by that website! I know this is old news about her but I haven't really told people how great she is and how she just started by posting herself singing in her bedroom and now she's getting better known and just signed Justin Timberlake's new label Tennman. I've been a subscriber to her even before all of that so it's crazy to see how her career grow.

Here's her infamous video of her singing Justin's "What Goes Around"



Esmee's Official Site

This is to let off steam

Don't take this blog seriously i wrIte here when i just have feElings to through out for whatever who wants to read. i can't see how poeple would read this and think my opinion is vaLid. i've been reading my past entrIes and i don't even agree with most of the stuff i even typed here. i'm not maKing this to make someone look bad and pEople shouldn't be using mY opinions to make another loOk even worse than i already had said. i've been qUiet for way too long when i was youngeR and haven't been vocal about anything and when i do it hurts others. life sucks and there is no god get over it, i've learned to just continue on and to not dwell on the past.

My Latest Purchase!

Whoo HOOO!! So yes I'm a fool I went out and purchased the iPhone! I knew I was going to get this phone but I didn't think I'd get it right away like this but man the day of the release day I saw a lot of YouTube videos that forced me to get one... (well they didn't "force" they just had it in hands and I was just oogling over it and decided then I needed to get one) So the next day I got it and I didn't wait in any line to get one either. First of all I went to AT&T store in West Des Moines on University, I actually called ahead to check if they have any available they said they had 2 left so I rush down to get one. When I got there they said they "JUST" sold the last one. I had them call the one on Merle Hay. They too also had 2 left so I went down there and yes they had 1 available for me (YIPPEE!) so I shelled out the 599.99 for the iPhone and rushed home to activate it.

Activating and Syncing

You really can't do anything with the phone or play around with it until you activate over iTunes so I just went ahead transfered my phone number to it. It was actually a quick process of doing that and the phone was activated in less than 10 minutes! I was adding some of my songs and contacts into it but then realize hey where's the sound? Nothing came out of the speaker and when I got a call it didn't even ring as well. So I checked with the apple site to see what I can do to maybe bring it back up. I did my resets and very disappointed that this had to happen a replacement within the couple hours of getting it. So I called up AT&T store and they said to go to the apple store in Jordan Creek. I went out real quick got some fast food and drove down to Jordan Creek Mall and to the apple store.

Apple Store Genius

So I got in there not knowing who to talk to I saw this guy that somewhat looks like a techy dude so I went to him I guess I'm suppose to submit my name to see the "Genius" so I waited 30 minutes just hanging around the apple store not really much interested in the whole thing. I should invest in an apple computer though just to mix things up and stuff. Anyway the "Genius" hollered my name and I went to him to have him check on my $599.99 purchase today. I guess he couldn't figured it out and within the 20 minutes of him looking at it I instantly got a replacement right there no wait. GREAT! I shouldn't just purchased the phone here from the start... He had to fill out some paper work and put my sim card from the first iphone to the second.

Second Time Activating

I iPhone didn't recognize right away my service with AT&T it advised me to connect with iTunes again so I did I had to go through the activation process again... I hope that doesn't screw up anything on my account... anyway it actually took longer this time around it told me to wait until I get an email from them. I guess it got confused when the old sim is with a new device? I don't know... So I decided to take a nap since I woke up pretty early to get this phone. It actually took a couple hours for AT&T to get back with me and had me reconnect my phone again. I did that and it was activated again. GREAT! So I did my syncing I did before and it was good to go, Speaker and ALL~!

A Small Review so Far~!

Not bad so far screen is beautiful it looks good in direct sunlight as well, but of course there is no way of avoiding greasy screen after a couple minutes of use. iTunes did mostly everything for me it integrated my pop mail settings I had set up with my outlook at home and it synced over all contacts and calendar entries. Email looks nice but when my emails all came down to the phone it listed them as all "unread" and so I had to actually open them all to have them in a "read status" there was not option to select all or mark all which kind of suck I had that with both my Nokia n93 and Treo 750. It didn't sync with my notes and task on my outlook which is alright I guess I don't use the notes feature but I do use the task but they don't even have a task app on the iPhone. (I'll live I guess)

Phone
So I made some calls and they were clear and I guess loud enough I haven't really tested it in a loud atmosphere. It does what everything the keynote speach has shown you so It's all good there. The visual voicemail they were pushing was an alright feature I guess it is more convenient then having to go through each message left.

Internet
Wow beautiful internet! it really does look like the real web but of course it's still mobile no flash or java animation. Since they were really proud of putting Safari into the phone they should really have made this a 3g phone with all capabilities of a desktop internet. I find it without a wifi connection the EDGE connection is kinda slow at times. I don't have 3g coverage in my area at this time but the people that do probably would be upset about not using the fastest connection to it. WIFI connection is great! Everything loads fast and great to run especially YouTube such a great add apple did with that. With the YouTube feature though when it connects to EDGE it does take some time to load and video isn't as clear as when connected with WIFI connection.

Camera
I really didn't expect camera for this phone to be great also a cell phone user that had the Nokia N93 that had 3.2 Megapixel and 3x optical zoom, the iPhone is very basic camera with 2 megapixel, it's really just a point and shoot the camera will recognize which angle you are holding the phone with the tipsy thing the iPhone is known for so if you do it landscape or portrait it will recognize which is down. There's also no extra settings for camera like white balance and not even a digital zoom and no flash.

Other Features
The apps on the phone is ok it has a nice maps feature which google needs to update on the Des Moines area some of the streets don't work anymore! It has a weather app that tells you right off what the temp is the rest of week. Text messaging is nice it gives it like an instant message so it's back to back with each person unlike coming all into one inbox. I had that feature on my Treo 750 though.

iPod
Probably the most impressive part of this phone is the iPod feature! WOW the new iPod itself needs to be this great! They really took advantage of the screen size for this feature on the "now playing" screen it will show the full album art and most all know when you turn it side ways you can scroll the album covers with a flick of a finger. The external speaker isn't so great so it's best to just connect some headphones, the thing about the earphone port is that even though it's a 3.5mm it's recessed so it may not fit regular readsets because it won't fit.

So Far...
I like it! I've had some problems with the phone like sometimes when browsing the web or playing some music the application would just close on me having to start up again, I don't know what's the deal with that perhaps some software upgrade will fix that issue it doesn't happen often but it does get annoying. Side from that it's thin and small and can carry my email with me. It does what I guess needs but the only one who can add on or make any changes to the device is apple themselves no way to put your own apps in unless apple gives them the ok to have it in the phone. So it's not really open for a lot of users that may be looking for other apps or other usage for the phone then what already came out of the box. I like how my Treo 750 and Nokia n93 had downloadables that's not from their own manufacturers themselves but from other 3rd party that increase the usability of the phone, which unless apple changes something won't be happening to iPhone. What I want for this phone is more apps, there's Mac X on here I guess they can work something out with each other. Possibly a feature where you can do basic functions on a desktop like (copy and paste select all) browser is good now but as the web grows it does get more fancier adding flash animation support to iphone would be just grand!

Another Depressing Thought

Oh I was on a call today just doing my regular technical support, and they started conversation. They were on the east coast asking how it was in little Des Moines, Iowa. I told them the truth this place is hell if you don't leave on time you're stuck here forever never succeeding and moving up in the world. It's very rare that someone will come out doing something great here. Most big business here do not start from Iowa it's from other places with more drive and more talent, and just using a small low cost city but still in the States to make more money off of.

I told my caller that I would love leaving this place and move to a big city living that "cool urban life" and all of that. it's something that I've always been interested in but seriously though if I was to move out there I wouldn't have a clue what to do. I don't really have any kind of profession I just have a lot of interest that I usually don't follow through with anything. I really lack determination and leadership that I feel is required when moving from here to there, also I don't have the people in my life that would be willing to tag along because I know I just can't do it myself. People I know are completely fine with this HOLE we call Des Moines, Iowa. I just wish I had the motivation or that extra boost to get me going, hell I can't even leave the place I'm working at that I've been bitching at for so long.

Sometimes I wish my parents would give me a little more talking to when I was younger. I love them very much they've done well but it's not like they've giving me enough motivation to always do your best no matter what or supported me on what I really want to do. They've just told me to do well in school and try to get a career that will bring in the cash. That's not what I want to do... yeah computers and junk is fun and interesting but I don't think that was what I want my career to be and because of that I don't even know what I want to do. It's sad I'm 23 but I feel like it's going to be like this for my life just doing the minimum and not following what I want to do but what people want of me.

Alone

No one wants to visit me! This sucks I thought living by myself it'll be cool cuz hey I can have people over as much or how long I want. Yeah I have that option but no one wants to take advantage of it. This sucks I sometimes rather go back to my parents cuz it's not working the way I want it to. Either people don't feel like driving down here or they don't like the part of finding parking or hate dealing with dowtown people. My god how anti-people could you be?

I don't know I don't want to move outside of downtown it's just not fun and it's not interesting to look out to see other houses nearby or the interstate. I like the "urban" kind of feel and they are working to making downtown des moines to be more lively and I kind of want to be part of that. I am really regretting moving out. It's not like my parents really cared much what I do and they're barely home so I have most of the house to myself anyway. Also I would have much more spending money. I just hate the fact saying I'm 23 living at home. I hate asking some of my peeps too that hey if you're bored or anything... (hint, hint) I have nothing to do. I sound friggin desperate but whatever... I'll think of something to do to persuade.

Little Girls

My sister Olivia just brought this to my attention and I know it's been there but haven't made much though of it. I don't get these kids around myspace at times thinkin they're so cool and take incessant pictures of themselves until they get it just right. My little cousins are at the age where they think they're so "HOTT" and thinking that everything is "gHeTTO" and such... They just don't realize doing what they are doing is embarrassing they look at the mirror so often for some reason they don't realize it themselves. They are snapping pictures with their lips all pouting and their eyeballs to the left.


Their Videos
Is that suppose to be the "cool thing" is to look ridiculously hideous when theirs a camera pointing at you? What happened to smiling for the camera and at least trying to look your best? Whatever losers...


I'm c00l toO!

Just catching u up

Just catching u up, originally uploaded by solotis.

Sat 04/21/2007 01:03 Image088 So I got pulled over by a cop one Friday night because I was speeding a tad well he found out I was drinking a bit. So he had me do some test to see if I was over the limit. I had to follow his light couple times and walk in a straight line. I was so embarrassed I was afraid someone might see me. You know if one old lady recognize me I'm going to labeled a "bad boy" that they'll just assume I went to jail and stuff. Anyway I passed his damn test but I was not able to drive he says. So Robbie, Sophia's boyfriend had to come all the way downtown to pick us up. That sucked so I have a speeding ticket now for that. This sucks.

Another note, it's getting kind of lonely by myself here. Maybe I started feeling this way cuz there really isn't much to do by yourself. I don't want to go to some bar downstairs by myself I find that weird. I've been doing a lot of Internet browsing and you just end up not finding anything on there so fun anymore youtube can only entertain so much. Oh well I'll figure something out here in a bit.

Ok work sucks, I'm not really moving up there it doesn't seem like a place I can get any higher I really need to find something else. We got new schedules ("we" being me and a friend at work that's been through this shit job since the beginning) and got a new supervisor we totally like him and all it's just that we don't like his team lead. He believes he has all this power over us and I don't think he's doing the best for our call center yeah we want to get off the calls as fast as possible but it's another thing to help the people out. Whatever so he actually try to start some thing with Josh here and we weren't liking that so best thing is move teams instead of getting fired over this fool. I felt kind of bad for leaving a bit cuz I really like the sup I had and he actually sounded kind of bitter when we left. Oh well you should have picked a better person to lead your team. With this new team I don't think I'm really liking it, I don't have a reason I just don't feel comfortable with the people around me. I should just quit. It shows in my calls now I don't give a shit.

Living in the city

Living in the city, originally uploaded by solotis.

Thu 04/12/2007 18:39 Image033 So it's not bad it's cool. I like to walk around downtown to my place even though I don't think I'm really not taking advantage of being by myself. I haven't really invited many people up and I haven't really made it my own by decorating or anything. What I really was afraid that not a lot of people would come because it's hard to find a place to park but it's a cool place to live on the weekends you can watch the drunks stumble to their car thinking they can drive, and seeing the after bar fights and people peeing in the alley. Just wanted to share the odd things that happens here during the weekend.

New place

New place, originally uploaded by solotis.

Mon 03/19/2007 10:43 Image947-001 Ok all guess I'm getting older with some responsibility. At my age of 23 I have moved away from my parents' house, I moved to an apartment all alone in downtown Des Moines, IA. So far it's cool lots of young people drunk walking around and it seems there's always something to look at or something. Well it's somewhat boring I just moved in but I don't have cable or as fast internet or any furniture except the bed. Once I get more settled I'm hoping to get more entertainment. Oh and right now for parking I'm just parking on the streets it's free after 6pm but I have to be out of that space by 8am which gets me to work early I guess. I do need to get a parking space so the days I want off or something I won't have to run to the car to put change in the meters and worry if I'm going to get a ticket or something. I'll get it all down I just really wasn't prepared to move yet but I refuse to have anyone tell me that I can't do this. That's the worst thing I hate to hear is that someone doubts me. It's just that I want this for myself to know I don't have to completely rely on my parents for support it feels good doing this even though I wasn't ready but to do this on my own is just the best feeling.

Just a Tuesday

Bored by myself at home it's 8:05pm listening to music and drinking my leftover beer I bought Saturday when at Sophia's. Nothing new just bored so I decided to write, tomorrow is Valentine's Day... nothing special cuz I don't have that someone to care about haha oh well. Guess I'm going to do the same thing tomorrow... Since I'm a little tipsy right now I guess I'll type about this dream I had couple weeks ago it's weird actually and something I would never thought I'd think of doing...

Anyway it was a dream about a girl I work with at work she's ok looking not the greatest to my standards but bareable we had a great time and things got pretty hot and heavy... (how corny) anyway yeah so we did the do... later on though in the dream I found out this girl got pregnant! I was crazed I just didn't know how to act I see myself in the dream freaking out over this crazy situation that I never thought myself to be in. Anyway at work she pulled me aside and told me this and she was going to keep it no matter what and she does want my support and help but she understands if I would decline... of course I accepted saying yeah I'll help but in my mind I'm freaking out and not ready for this whatsoever. I was freaking I was telling everyone no one seem to really give me much attention or I did get a little but to them it was saying it's all on me deal with it, you got yourself into this, which of course I did... I told this other friend at work, he was going into a meeting with her that was upstairs with her and quietly asked if he needed my assistance with this issue. The thing was he would be willing to "accidentally" push her down the stairs which would of course lead to no responsiblity... Crazy enough something I would never have thought I would think of myself to do... agreed to it. I said that would be ok if he was willing to do my dirty work.

I think I woke up or something veered away from that issue because I don't remember the rest... I just thought I'd share that, it's this crazy thing I've been thinking of for a while and I'm very surprised I actually would agree to such doing. It kind of scared me a little. Well I don't know I'll probably regret letting this information out but it feels good to type what I'm feeling at times, I would like to make a note that this is a public journal or blog I created and I'm ok with whoever reads this I don't regret what I say because it's what's on my mind at the time, I might feel bad about it later or regret what I say but what's done is done and I don't feel to take back what I say. It's my own fault if I say something that I might should not have said but I'm ok. It's a release from what I always keep inside and it's a way for me to be ok, I'm ok for anyone to give me feedback or comment what I say, don't feel afraid to tell me if I'm wrong or I need "help" in my situation I'll work it out myself but I'll take your word into consideration. Thanks

Wanted: a plane home right away

Wanted: a plane home right away, originally uploaded by solotis.

Tue 02/06/2007 23:09 Image665 Five in the morning we got up to get ready to go to Los Angeles to just go through and maybe see Olivia real quick. Oh man I was not happy getting up that early it was crazy my eyes are bloodshot of tired and I haven't really was all go out ready yet. Anyway we ate breakfast at the hotel and drove off to la la land (haha people probably don't even say that anymore.)

So we're off and wow this place is seriously in the middle of a desert just dry land and some brushes. There we're mountains though so that was cool, also I didn't realize the altitude was going to affect me but it kept popping my ears on the way there. Man we were tired and I just couldn't even try to keep him company because it was just too much. Anyway we stop by some has stations and finally made it there.

So it's a city with such crappy traffic we get stuck and go like the whole entire time there. Finally though we found a place to eat it's some Thai restaurant that was pretty good by the way don't know what it's called though. After that we went walked around Hollywood blvd and saw the Kodak theater it's cool but people are there dressed up like things trying to get money for pics. My uncle took a pic with Elmo and we had to give him a dollar for that cuz that was the only small cash I had. Yeah so we passed by some stars and all of that tourist stuff but at a big rush since my uncle was in a big hurry to go back to Vegas to get to see celebrity impersonaters.

On our way back he was so tired he was swerving all over the place I offered to drive but he wouldn't have it. So we did make it back but man I was a little nervous but yeah we got back and we did go to the show it was ok kind of fun but we were late to it though so after that my other uncles decided to meet up and eat we ate some 50s-ish restaurant where the requirements are you have to be able to sing. It's kind of hard putting a smile on my face for this table like they're having a blast and me like yup sure is with my awkward look on my face.

Later that night we actually went on the strip first stop Caesar's. Of course what we did was walked through the casinos in a rush not being able to see anything or stop to look at the crazy architecture. After that we went through the Bellaggio where finally we can stop to take pictures. Them we walked right out of there and went to the Venician he played paigao poker. He's spent all his money and went to the atm for more too bad he couldn't withdrawel so he asked of for money. I will not discuss how much. So while he's gambling I found a place to sit and type some of this down. On our way back he just couldn't stop talking about it like "oh my god I lost money at casino, what are the odds." uhh there pretty good. Anyway we came back to the hotel and I went straight to the room not wanting to do much more. He's gambling downstairs right now. I knew from the start that I wasn't going to have fun here. Oh well I can't wait to get back home tomorrow. Just before I was ending this someone asked for more of a certain something...

Second day in Vegas with an addict

Second day in Vegas with an addict, originally uploaded by solotis.

Tue 02/06/2007 00:40 Image647 Ok second day my uncle gambling addict came to the room around 6 which would be 8 our time. Anyway when we woke up around 9 he only had a couple hours and again he's moving around a lot while sleeping just couldn't stay still. We of course didn't really go to many places we ate at some dimsum and we were on our way back. My god we just could not leave the Stratosphere this isn't a great hotel and it's so far away from the really good hotels.

I did though play a quarter slot and put 5 dollars into it that last me an hour and a half i went up pretty high but couldn't stop and lost 100. I gained up to 100 from a 5 bill and lost it all just to keep time passing and i thought I could go higher. So anyway after that I watched my uncle just going up and down with his money I got tired so I went upstairs to take a nap. I got a call later saying yeah come down we'll eat so I did and watched him play a little more then we ate at some buffet. I'm getting sick of this trip already I'm ready to go home and go to work. It'd be so much better he I had people my age or people that's willing to do more than just sit at a table and throw my money out. We're in Vegas there are more things to do than just gamble. I want to do more site seeing this sucks. So now I'm sick of walking around the place so I decided to just chill in the room. While talking on the phone with my sister how this trip was going my uncle came into the room not too sure if he heard anything but he looked somewhat upset. I guess he spent all his money of course he did by the way he's spending I don't know how he does it.

So I guess he feels somewhat bad for just doing his own thing with gambling so we're going to see a topless vampire show... (went to see the show) ok that was fun it's called "Bite" and it's interesting they touched me twice haha. There was a lot of smacking a lot of licking and yes there was "biting." Most had really nice bodies with some fake boobs.

After we were done with that my uncle decided to do some more gambling I just went ahead and put some money in the slots. I put 40 bucks in there and nothing. So I was like I'll just go ahead and put some chips on some numbers with roulette. I couldn't even get that right. So I've spent 100 bucks there in an hour time so I had to quit I just don't have the money for this. So I'm back up in the room again. Just hanging out up here I was actually considering walking around myself now but nah. He decided to come up around 2 this time it's because he doesn't have any money my god I thought I was bad with money oh well. Anyway we're going to LA tomorrow so hopefully I'll have fun there.

Vegas first day

Vegas first day, originally uploaded by solotis.

Mon 02/05/2007 00:28 Image643 Not a great start let me tell you that. Ok let's start by our flight to there. Oh my god, my uncle sitting there is like a kid first off he took the window seat even though he travels a lot and he can not stay still and some times he would lean on me. Ahhh! I really went there too with such little money since i'm thinking of moving out of the house and I was told like a couple months in advance.

When we had our lay over in Memphis we ate some lunch and that was when the superbowl was on too so it was kind of a crazy moment. We ate and had some beers I wished I drank more because I don't know how I'm going t stand him on the way to Vegas there. So yeah it was even worse on the way there he got up like 3 times going to the restroom how annoying and of course he couldn't take the aisle seat.

Not that I already think this guy is a closet gay but he keeps asking he I want to see Toni Braxton. I'm not a fan and I just not want to see her also that would be in the way of meeting Olivia in LA Tuesday. He's probably going to ask again but I'll have to refuse nicely. Also he scares me when gambling of my god he lost more than a $1000 in less than an hour and that's more than what I came with. He's still down there gambling while I'm tying this up.

Oh man scary thing happen while trying to make it upstair to this room I was trying hard to find this room and heard really loud yelling and screaming coming from a ghetto black girl (I really don't want to sound racist or stereotypical) but man I end up going back downstairs to find my uncle what room it was again and the chick was on a level below me and she walked in the elevator with me crying, saying "down please!" I felt uncomfortable and was like ugh you ok? Damn that was weird and when I got to the bottom floor these security guards dressed like they were SWAT came to the elevator and i walked away like oh my god and felt kind of awkward. Well i'm going to sleep right now so I'm done with this. Next time I'm going to request to not be at the Stratosphere because it's the ghetto part of the Vegas strip.

Sophia's Starlight Mints

Funny story about Saara did to Sophia when they were younger.

I Hate You William Hung!

I just like to say that I really hate this man. I believe he is a disgrace to all of Asian-Americans out there trying to move away from this kind of stereotype. He's a complete joke to everyone from the start of American Idol singing this god-awful song by Ricky Martin.

Of course he's making money doing what he's doing but he's out there in the public eye knowing that everyone is laughing at his appearance and his accent, ignorant people are going to believe that most of asians are like this, not just that he's singing horribly he's also an engineer student at the time which doesn't help him with the typical asian stereo type that we're good it Math. I just wanted to rant a little because I live my life trying to remove this image that many people think of us and here's this walking stereotype discrediting everything.

U Don't Know Me

drinking, originally uploaded by solotis.

Don't you hate it when people look at you and they quick to judge how you are to act, how your background is, and what type of music you listen to? I know that it's just people that are ignorant quickly assuming because they know someone that is asian or whatever assumes I'm that way too. Thinking I go clubbin' at some disco tech place, having some fancy import car, just some stupid stereotype. I'm not trying to be selfhating asian, I just hate the stereotype that comes along with being asian.

"I was living a biracial life when I'm not."

I really don't hang out with many asians, I do at times feel a bit intimidated by them, that I don't "act asian enough" because my beliefs and my interests. It all started with middle school, of course I have to say middle school is the worse because damn kids are mean at that age. While all the asian kids at that time where really into Rap and R&B and dressing like they're "hood," I was listenin' to my Green Day, NIN, and Smashing Pumpkins. Even though I was still wearing my some designer clothes I was picking off some style from what those bands were wearing. (Very little) But automatically to them I was considered a "white-washed" or a "twinkie" (yellow outside w/white filling.) To them I was white, to my white friends I was asian. I was living a biracial life when I'm not. When middle school ended and going into high school they didn't say things to me I wasn't in the big asian groups or invited to their things. I'd just have few of them talk to me and they don't seem to come at me all at once they would talk to me one to one with me like they were not wanting to be seen with me or some shit, it sucked. It sucks that I dwell on this but it really affected me how I look into our asian culture.

I try my hardest not to fall into stereotype, I'm not going to be those asians that are thugs who group themselves doing bad things not achieving anything in their lives. I'm not going to go out with an asian girl that pretend to act all cute and innocent and act dumb, I don't fall into that. I only think guys go for that because the way they think is that they feel they are the dominant in the relationship that they have power to do whatever they want and sadly that is sometimes how it goes with them. The person I hate that has totally made more of a stereotype that I just want to die is William Hung. He has made a fool out of us, that is how people have looked at us way back and he just brought it back to humiliate us all. Even though he is getting that cash for his 15 minutes, he should realize that he's actually somewhat representing us Asian Americans and he's totally making entire America to laugh at us.

I don't know why I decided to write about this today, it was just something that was on my mind. No scratch that, it's because someone assumed the other day they know the choice of music I listen to because of my appearance, and it just brought me back to school how I couldn't be myself.

'07 Crappy New Year!

Savory Bar, originally uploaded by solotis.

I knew I wanted to drink on new years eve because well it's new years duh! Just didn't know that the people I was with wasn't down for it, which made me think well if I drink more I'll have my own fun or something... First off it did snow on eve so that was not a good start. Before Saara picked me up I though man I should drink a few before heading out to get me started so I went ahead and drank a couple beers from the fridge a chugged one down when she was in the front drive. On our drive to Sophia's we called her out and Sophia was out there waiting... Uhhh so where's Robbie? Turns out that "Oh he was too tired to go out tonight" ok we didn't think much of it until not that far away from her place we got "Oh can we turn back real quick I forgot something." What was it you ask? "I kinda left without Robbie" They obviously had a fight so i'm thinking (Oh god let's not have it very uncomfortable for us in the car.) After waiting a while in the car they both come out and we were on our way.

First we went to The Savory Hotel just to get a few drinks, we had a great time we drank took some pictures it was a nice setting, the drinks I had were not the typical drinks I usually get. I'm use to just drinking some beers. So I was pretty set out of Savory. We ate at Splash later on and I wasn't very hungry so I just had drinks again and an appetizer. I can't remember much from that on but we left there right before the new year and went to "The Lift" for the new year. To be honest I was pretty out there already so I really don't remember much there I do remember that right when it was 12 somebody by the name of Sophia wanted to leave and go home. So we just took the rest of the night to the apartment.

Still drinking that night at Sophia's, Robbie and I were the only ones that were still going... as I can remember anyway... Whatever time it was, we decided to go home. The trip back was pretty heavy, I believe I vomit in Saara's car and let out way too much information about myself that I would not tell anybody so now I have people who think I'm a mental case and needs psychiatric help. I can't drink hard liquer it gets the worst out of me. I'm sticking with beers I have more control over myself.