I knew I wanted to drink on new years eve because well it's new years duh! Just didn't know that the people I was with wasn't down for it, which made me think well if I drink more I'll have my own fun or something... First off it did snow on eve so that was not a good start. Before Saara picked me up I though man I should drink a few before heading out to get me started so I went ahead and drank a couple beers from the fridge a chugged one down when she was in the front drive. On our drive to Sophia's we called her out and Sophia was out there waiting... Uhhh so where's Robbie? Turns out that "Oh he was too tired to go out tonight" ok we didn't think much of it until not that far away from her place we got "Oh can we turn back real quick I forgot something." What was it you ask? "I kinda left without Robbie" They obviously had a fight so i'm thinking (Oh god let's not have it very uncomfortable for us in the car.) After waiting a while in the car they both come out and we were on our way.
First we went to The Savory Hotel just to get a few drinks, we had a great time we drank took some pictures it was a nice setting, the drinks I had were not the typical drinks I usually get. I'm use to just drinking some beers. So I was pretty set out of Savory. We ate at Splash later on and I wasn't very hungry so I just had drinks again and an appetizer. I can't remember much from that on but we left there right before the new year and went to "The Lift" for the new year. To be honest I was pretty out there already so I really don't remember much there I do remember that right when it was 12 somebody by the name of Sophia wanted to leave and go home. So we just took the rest of the night to the apartment.
Still drinking that night at Sophia's, Robbie and I were the only ones that were still going... as I can remember anyway... Whatever time it was, we decided to go home. The trip back was pretty heavy, I believe I vomit in Saara's car and let out way too much information about myself that I would not tell anybody so now I have people who think I'm a mental case and needs psychiatric help. I can't drink hard liquer it gets the worst out of me. I'm sticking with beers I have more control over myself.
Monday, January 01, 2007
'07 Crappy New Year!
Saturday, December 30, 2006
Friday, December 29, 2006
It was an ok night though I didn't get drunk last night. After I came home from work I ate a little bit and took a nap. Then my sister woke me up to start the night for some wings at Buffalo Wild Wings. It was ok we just sat and drinking some beers and junk then later went to Sophia's for some more drinks while we wait for Robbie to come home from work. That's when we went to El Bait Shop. Just a typical bar their setting was to look like well... a Bait Shop. It had some weird furniture and it looked like a shack. The greatest thing about that place is look at all of those beers on tap! I don't know why I didn't get drunk, I guess I wasn't feeling it today or my sister made it weird for me to hang out with her that way. I don't know...
Sunday, December 24, 2006
Christmas Eve
Olivia's back same drama... Of course it doesn't start the best when my parents didn't pick her up at the airport. I don't want to defend them saying they're doing last minute Christmas shopping but they should've been there. She came back and of course her being so damn selfconscious is scared of what the family thinks about her gaining weight. It's not all but being in our family you are constantly judged it's really horrible if you do one thing wrong they're so scared by association they'll be that way too.
She hates it here and at first my thought of her moving out of here was just to experience a new way of living to maybe do something career-wise I was totally wrong! The only reason for her move to California was because she's running away from us. She was never happy with how our family worked which I don't blame her but just going out leaving hiding from us is such a sad and pathetic way she showed in her personality. Also the worse thing is that she's not even happy over there! She's just struggling financially and even without US she can't live there. Her so-called "boyfriend" is a horrible man. He'll make her feel smallest ever making everything her fault with how she's having issues with living. She'll accept them as well, probably thinking I am horrible, I can't do this, or it's completely my fault. What he's really doing is blaming our family for how she is behaving how we're horrible people, he's controlling how she thinks and she is falling into it! I just don't understand how this guy she only known for so little as for us that's known her all her life is doing this to her it's the worst thing ever.
I do agree a bit that our family is corrupt and we totally paint a pretty picture over ourselves to make us look like we're happy but it's the worse thing a kid would be in. I guess it's different because Olivia does crave attention and she doesn't get it all the time with my parents and the way I am, I allow them to do what they want I fall in to being a "good boy" I want out at times too. I was actually jealous of her moving away of Des Moines, Iowa. I wanted to experience being by myself taking care of myself. Olivia has made that even more difficult for me, she was suppose to be the lead on that but she failed, making that harder for me to accomplish myself. My life sucks I don't think there's even a trained doctor could help me now it was a little too late it's something I'll have to work on my own.
We fought in the car a little when we were getting food for our younger cousins we were watching. She's 26 years old yelling at a 14 year old girl about food and actually said "FUCK YOU" to her. This whole time she came back she was telling them all or preaching to them to not act a certain way or don't use that word, or you wouldn't want to be called that so you shouldn't use that. Oh so Olivia likes to told to "FUCK YOU!" because it was ok for her to say it to a little girl. Saying oh she's grown she should be able to accept that. Well Olivia to a kid that has always looked up to you, who liked to spend the night to hang out with you, that is a scar that is left on that little girl you told to "FUCK YOU!" I'm not going to tell you to change because that's who you are and obviously it's "our fault" that you are the way you.
I'll probably regret posting this because I'm just really mad at this time but it just feels good to get what's on my mind at this time.
She hates it here and at first my thought of her moving out of here was just to experience a new way of living to maybe do something career-wise I was totally wrong! The only reason for her move to California was because she's running away from us. She was never happy with how our family worked which I don't blame her but just going out leaving hiding from us is such a sad and pathetic way she showed in her personality. Also the worse thing is that she's not even happy over there! She's just struggling financially and even without US she can't live there. Her so-called "boyfriend" is a horrible man. He'll make her feel smallest ever making everything her fault with how she's having issues with living. She'll accept them as well, probably thinking I am horrible, I can't do this, or it's completely my fault. What he's really doing is blaming our family for how she is behaving how we're horrible people, he's controlling how she thinks and she is falling into it! I just don't understand how this guy she only known for so little as for us that's known her all her life is doing this to her it's the worst thing ever.
I do agree a bit that our family is corrupt and we totally paint a pretty picture over ourselves to make us look like we're happy but it's the worse thing a kid would be in. I guess it's different because Olivia does crave attention and she doesn't get it all the time with my parents and the way I am, I allow them to do what they want I fall in to being a "good boy" I want out at times too. I was actually jealous of her moving away of Des Moines, Iowa. I wanted to experience being by myself taking care of myself. Olivia has made that even more difficult for me, she was suppose to be the lead on that but she failed, making that harder for me to accomplish myself. My life sucks I don't think there's even a trained doctor could help me now it was a little too late it's something I'll have to work on my own.
We fought in the car a little when we were getting food for our younger cousins we were watching. She's 26 years old yelling at a 14 year old girl about food and actually said "FUCK YOU" to her. This whole time she came back she was telling them all or preaching to them to not act a certain way or don't use that word, or you wouldn't want to be called that so you shouldn't use that. Oh so Olivia likes to told to "FUCK YOU!" because it was ok for her to say it to a little girl. Saying oh she's grown she should be able to accept that. Well Olivia to a kid that has always looked up to you, who liked to spend the night to hang out with you, that is a scar that is left on that little girl you told to "FUCK YOU!" I'm not going to tell you to change because that's who you are and obviously it's "our fault" that you are the way you.
I'll probably regret posting this because I'm just really mad at this time but it just feels good to get what's on my mind at this time.
Thursday, December 21, 2006
New This Week
So this week at work they put me in a new position. A helpdesk position for our own people. It's kind of fun, we really don't get calls back to back which is great. They've made a lot of changes there the best they've done is removing that bitch Angela off that department. Also they are a little more strict on time now they want you on the phone on the dot. Wow this entry isn't me bitching about this place what a change. Well hopefully it'll stay looking up. I'm just happy i don't have to deal with many customers anymore just the stupid people that we're hiring.
Sunday, December 17, 2006
Still complaining
Oh my god! I can't believe I'm still working at this place! It's been a year! What's wrong with me?! Why can't I just go work someplace else? This job is making me depressed and drinking a lot than I usually do... It's making me think that I can't do anything better and making me think that I'll be stuck here my whole life, which will not happen! I will make sure of that. They did just tell me though that I'm moving to another area of our department where I won't be dealing with many people anymore, it's more of a helpdesk of what I'm doing right now! haha which is great cuz I'll be taking call of people that use to be me! haha oh and they put me in a position for "call backs" where if their issue was not resolved before I can call them back and ask them why and if I can fix it... only did one but I know I'm going to get a call where they are just going to bitch saying that we suck and I'm going to just sit to listen to their complaint. Well hopefully I'm not going to do much of those...
Saturday, December 16, 2006
Lifeblog post
Thu 11/30/2006 09:50 Image012 First pic for my first flickr post. Got my new phone the n93 and what can I say? I love it! It's feature packed with 3.2 megapixel camera, 3x optical zoom. it's more than just a camera phone though it has a video recording that takes 640x480 resolution and 30fps. And an app to blog straight to flickr. That's my test right now. This is a pick of me at work and my buddy Josh took the pic. I really don't look happy at all but that's funny... I guess...
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
Fuck you Bitch!
So we got this new head Department leader chick, Angela, and she is a fucking bitch. From the start I just can't stand this lady coming over here from another department not knowing about ours and just starts telling people what to do without even formally introducing herself. All we had was a mass email she wrote to everyone in the dept. to tell what her name is and what she is taking over. At least our first leader dude came to the floor once in a while asking us by name how we were doing. But he's gone because of some big scandal and now people from Kentucky came over to help us out, I'm upset that she is going to get praised for our dept doing a little better now since Kentucky people came to help. She is doing an okay job for keeping our service levels up but holy fuck she's a whore-ible woman. You know her type she's nice to your face but in reality doesn't give a shit about you, and just doesn't give good vibe. Also she looks like if you talk to her she'll listen but just cared about your issue that time and forgets everything after you leave. I feel from the start she didn't like our little corner because we were a little louder than the others but hey if she just talked to us about it, it wouldn't be that bad.
I'm just writing about this because today she fucking separated us and I found it very unsettling for me. I mean my god are we in grade school or something? It really made me feel degraded when she believed that was the only route to go. I mean I completely understand that it is a workplace, and we do have to keep it professional and we should keep our voices down because people around us are on the phones, but just to move us without giving us a warning or an ultimatum just really made me feel like we were little kids or something. We are all adults we could've worked things out instead of just doing that to us. Another thing they had to get poor Bill, who always try to keep people happy to give us the bad news. It really does suck because these guys are my friends we've been through the first training class together, we've hung out outside of work. We aren't do awful on the phones, well I can't speak for one but I know 2 of us have had nothing but above 90 scores, so I really don't know why they would say we could be affecting each other's performance. I know when I'm on the phone I stop everything and just pay attention to my caller. Of course there will be days when I just don't care but most of the time, I'm there for the caller.
I don't really care much anymore if they do come back to their seats, but seriously we need to talk to that bitch and tell her how to work with people because I feel she was incorrect on her decision to move us.
I'm just writing about this because today she fucking separated us and I found it very unsettling for me. I mean my god are we in grade school or something? It really made me feel degraded when she believed that was the only route to go. I mean I completely understand that it is a workplace, and we do have to keep it professional and we should keep our voices down because people around us are on the phones, but just to move us without giving us a warning or an ultimatum just really made me feel like we were little kids or something. We are all adults we could've worked things out instead of just doing that to us. Another thing they had to get poor Bill, who always try to keep people happy to give us the bad news. It really does suck because these guys are my friends we've been through the first training class together, we've hung out outside of work. We aren't do awful on the phones, well I can't speak for one but I know 2 of us have had nothing but above 90 scores, so I really don't know why they would say we could be affecting each other's performance. I know when I'm on the phone I stop everything and just pay attention to my caller. Of course there will be days when I just don't care but most of the time, I'm there for the caller.
I don't really care much anymore if they do come back to their seats, but seriously we need to talk to that bitch and tell her how to work with people because I feel she was incorrect on her decision to move us.
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
So Sick
More ranting from Otis here, man I hate where my life is going... I haven't done anything I know I'm young and able to do whatever I need to do before whatever happens, but man I'm just too scared to move and I really need that extra push to get me what I want. I know I have it pretty good... I guess... a free place to stay, pay very little for my car and phone, and my bills are what I charge on my credit card and from school. I feel that I rely on my parents too much and I want to stop. I want to live on my own do something get out of Des Moines do something!
Yet, I haven't finished college and I really don't know what I want to do. All I know is that I do not want to be stuck in Des Moines and stay at this crappy job that will never lead me anywhere. Oh god I feel it's going to be another story of my shitty job at EDS, but hey FINALLY someone at work, (let's call him cousin-in-law) have noticed something at work that I've noticed way back, (only because it use to be him that was "favorited" HAHA)... but THEY would select people that are not so great, to be somewhat above others that actually know what's going on. People wonder why I hate this job so much, yeah it's easy but I just hate the lack of respect I get there. Oh god I don't want to talk about this damn job, I get so frustrated everytime I sit at that desk knowing I can do better. I really need to look for something else!
Anyway just thinking about how my sister is in Cali makes me think I should do that too I need to leave this damn town, and just not turn back. Even if it does happen to be Des Moines is where I'm suppose to be I just need to experience living in a new environment.
Yet, I haven't finished college and I really don't know what I want to do. All I know is that I do not want to be stuck in Des Moines and stay at this crappy job that will never lead me anywhere. Oh god I feel it's going to be another story of my shitty job at EDS, but hey FINALLY someone at work, (let's call him cousin-in-law) have noticed something at work that I've noticed way back, (only because it use to be him that was "favorited" HAHA)... but THEY would select people that are not so great, to be somewhat above others that actually know what's going on. People wonder why I hate this job so much, yeah it's easy but I just hate the lack of respect I get there. Oh god I don't want to talk about this damn job, I get so frustrated everytime I sit at that desk knowing I can do better. I really need to look for something else!
Anyway just thinking about how my sister is in Cali makes me think I should do that too I need to leave this damn town, and just not turn back. Even if it does happen to be Des Moines is where I'm suppose to be I just need to experience living in a new environment.
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