Beliefs

I don't understand this so-called religion and why people believe in such out beliefs of high power, this "god." Seriously if you look at it... god is as real as aliens and ghost. No one has actually have true fact that this "god" exist all they go by is this stupid book that someone thought they would write. You see how ridiculous Scientology is, and people just don't realize that it's the same thing almost as Christianity. This person actually died and came back to life? Even if that were true why is that so special? He died because people don't believe in that he's the real deal and he... what rose from the dead? yeah ok... pretty out there beliefs. I will have a lot of people not liking what I'm saying but I don't give a shit I hate how people totally live their lives this crazy way that there's no proof. It may be the alcohol in me right now that is making me rant about this but I just hate it when this is what they go by and it feels they can't live their lives they were wanting to because their are scared... Yeah I know I'll be going to Hell if this place exist (PSSSSHHHAAAA) I just think when you die you die.

I don't want to persuade anyone differently that's not what I want do if you believe in something go for it. If you hate me go ahead, I don't care. I'm a nice person haha. I just don't agree with you on your crazy.

I have no idea why this issue has come up tonight for me I can care less but I guess I'm a little under the influence as of right now... and somewhat a little of the real me comes out, I apologize though if this offends... but not really because I truely believe this... haha whatever

Status of what I'm doing

Listening to: J. Holiday - Bed
Feeling: Tipsy not drunk... yet

Working is really putting a lot on me even though most of the time I'm kinda hanging around getting paid. I don't know what to do anymore I still need money coming in but I need to find something better than this. It doesn't seem like I'm going to ever progress in this position I think it's best to just move to better things. It kind of sucks and I know I'm just making excuses for myself but the hours I'm working I don't really have time to look for a new job at all and if I do get a day off I rather not even think of work at all. It's a little stressful they would always make you feel like you're high and mighty having you do special projects and then take it away from you...

I've been drinking a lot more recently, I didn't learn from my incident at work when I was working night shifts. It just takes you away from your problems and I know that should not be the way to go but it's a temporary fix for the night. I may get that looked at or something... most of my money goes to that I am saving up for a damn MacBook Pro and that is holding me back a little I don't know... People would ask me to go out sometimes I don't even go out if it doesn't involve me getting something to drink at the venue we'd be at. I sometimes just rather stay home and drink until I pass out and have to wake up the next day for work.

Maybe I should have made these separate posts, no one will read all of this... Well I'll be blabbing here so this will be fun...

Too bad about Heath Ledger right? ---that's all I have to say about that

Hey my credit score went up! I'm very ecstatic about that actually. It's great that I actually took the time to manage my credit and not screw it up like a lot of young people out there. My birthday is next month I guess I'm excited... actually no not really it's 24 not much of a change from 23 or no more privileges or anything. I still don't know what I'm going to do for my 24 most likely get drunk and feeling sorry for myself or something... I just thought I would be actually doing something with my life instead of working for the MAN. It's funny I thought I'd actually be somewhere in the entertainment industry (weird huh?) Something with music perhaps or movies... or you know be a photographer of some sort, I take pictures I don't believe they're good but I like to look at photography and art all together. I don't know... that sort of career is hard to get into and you'd probably have to deal with a lot of pretentious types.

Good thing about work though... Money is coming my way for doing my job this Retention Bonus thing they're having to get like 350 calls in with your quality having to be up and junk... I have to say that was very easy money for me, I was almost excused for the entire thing. I really didn't have to keep up quality because at the time I was calling people back and there was no qualities done on me and excused because of going to a training class for 2 weeks for another month. HAHA oh well...

This weekend I went to Hessen Haus for some beers, we had a boot... ooh I think I have a picture of that I'll upload...


I really didn't have any desire to actually go out this weekend I would've been fine to just stay at home and drink it would've been cheaper but oh well it was fun... of what I remember. I might have embarassed myself a bit too but oh well drinking does that! I think I'm done typing I don't know if any of the 1 reader haha would care to actually go through the whole thing...

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American Idol 7

Yeah I usually don't follow the American Idol until it gets to the top 25 or top whatever when we actually get to vote but I watched a little at a time and so far I guess I think this chick will win she Kady Malloy



She's good but best audition so far I think is Katharine McPhee



If you're not a fan of American Idol I'm sorry I have nothing better to talk about today and I wanted to put something new up here

MLK

I cannot believe today that this lady I work with truly believe that there was not anything special about Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. She straight out said that he was just an activist and if it wasn't him there will just be another to do the same thing. Even if that were true he was the one that came out and was strong enough to try to fight for what he believes in without using any acts of violence to get his way. He's part of American History and it makes me sad that people would even say anything negative about this man, he is what makes America so special how we have the freedom to speech and if you don't feel like something is correct that you can try to fight what you believe in.

I just couldn't believe the words coming out of her mouth that I had to kind of attack on religion a little that I don't believe and there's no proof to that shit, I knew that would spark something because she is a true Conservative that use to be in the army and junk. Seriously like this magical man created the world and judges you if you're a horrible person you will go to hell when you die? She made an argument stating well people can say the same about MLK Jr. I was stunned like how could you possibly say that when that just happened not too long ago and your "GOD" is a fairy tale that supposedly happened before time. Science is what it really is everything science cannot answer they just have "God" to fill in the blanks. I hate getting into this kind of subject with people I try to stay neutral. I love this country very much and to me saying something about a person that really made a difference is insulting. I'm pretty good at listening to the other side but to just say something about MLK on his day is just so damn low to me.

Feel free to comment here for me, leave hateful words if you want I don't care

MacWorld!! I will make go someday!

So today was an Apple day, Mr. Steve Jobs has his keynote for new upcoming apple products and it's pretty cool but I don't think it's anything really worthwhile. He just got up there talking about some software updates on the iPhone which is cool but still no ability to friggin MMS on the phone or forward text messaging. Only thing they did with SMS was to send one message to multiple people... Another thing they had is that they updated their Maps program on the phone, yeah it doesn't really know precisely where you are they just know the general area and it's pretty wide range I found too.


What I need from my phone is this and apple needs to bring it along:
MMS
Copy & Paste
3rd party apps (No Safari Widgets please)
Exchange mail support (more than imap needs to be enabled)
Instant Messaging
Video Recording
...There's probably more but I can't think of it now

Another thing they brought out is the new MacBook Air it looks nice it's crazy thin and sexy but it's very basic specs.


It's more expensive than the regular MacBook but with lower specs and lack of a disc drive and it's all very minimal. I guess it's good for people that are just wanting to do is maybe browse the web and check their email. It looks really good though very pretty computer. I still want one LOL but I rather get the MacBook Pro, and once that bonus I get from work and my get my tax refund I'm there BOOOOOYYYYYYY!!!

Wow Twitter is pretty cool

I'm going to start Twittering, it's pretty cool... you see updates and just little annotations as I'm going through my day through my cell phone. So all of ya'll should join we can all stay connected and be one haha...


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Otis's Twitter (LOL that sounds kinda dirty)

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Can't get enough of iJustine

Justine Ezarik she's a video blogger and I just can't stop following her in her life. If you don't know she's the one that put that video of her iPhone bill that was like 300 pages or so... Blogging is so amazing but it's kinda weird because they are totally broadcasting themselves to the world but she is ridiculously amusing. If I had the confidence in actually being recorded I would bring my camera everywhere with me. This chick looks good and she's actually intelligent so that makes it all the better, I like girls that can hold their own.


I'm kinda jealous of her life she seems to got it all together it seems through her blogging she has done some web and graphic design, even edits her videos and she's younger than me by a month. Check her out you'll get obsessed with her too!

Tasty Blog Snack (Her Blog)
Her YouTube Channel

This guy is amazing!

Check out what he does with photoshop I wish I can do this!

Wow drinking gone too far

I've been drinking at work and this saturday night I went too far. I still had some captain morgan in my car so I drank almost most of it. I felt fine when I went back in but WHOA! That shit kicked my ass so hard that I was not even able to walk or if I did it wasn't straight. Luckily my friend from work kinda babysat me as my cousins picked me up. I hate when that happens! I don't think I'm going to do that anymore there was a lot I was risking just doing that. I don't even remember the whole ride from work to my apartment I woke up around 7 naked on my bed. HOLY SHIT I'm kinda nervous I hope no one else saw me.

I don't know just bloggin'

Right now it's Friday or I mean Saturday I guess... and I'm a little tipsy right now. I got off of work a couple hours ago so I didn't have the time to really go out I hate these hours I can never work nights I'll miss all the going out and junk... well I don't know what to really say right now well that chick that I've been talking about who I kinda have been seeing and her boyfriend beat her seems like she's happy where she's at with her relationship and have been kinda not talking much to me anymore since I've kinda told her off about how stupid she is how she's still with him and how she needed to leave. Girls are stupid I swear sometimes! Some are just desperate for attention and even if it's a bad kind they crave for it. I don't know I'm not interested anymore with helping out I don't give a shit if she wants to stay in that relationship go ahead it's not like I didn't try to help out. Well I don't know what I'm to do with this it's going to be awkward seeing her when I do... Life sucks I think I'm about to go in my despression that I had a year ago (I haven't really been diagnose for depression but I felt like I was but kinda broke myself out of it) I've been drinking a lot more now and I'm just hating how things are going with work and personal life and it sucks because for a while now I've been happy or okay with how things are going... I don't know maybe it's just a bad couple months or something...

Oh and what the fuck Britney? Why are you so crazy? I was rooting for you to succeed!

Drinking on the job

So I haven't been drinking in a while because my New Year sucked and how terrible the night was starting, a friend felt like they were mad at me and phones were just not working all day so man "I need a hit so give me it." So I thought hey I think on my lunch I will go to Hy-Vee and grab some beers and vodka to get a little fun at work, plus I haven't really ate much today so I thought hey some beers may get me there. I drank a few in the car chugging it down as fast I could, and MAN! It was great feeling at work. I didn't have to be on the phones (think of how fun that would've been...) and I had supervisors that really wouldn't care what I do so I just thought screw it I'm doing it.



It felt great the rest of the night I just didn't have a care at all I just did what I did talking to folks and just having a fun time at work. I didn't get off until midnight anyway so there weren't any important people at the time. I would suggest all to do this, it's a change from the constant same boring stuff you always do.

Happy New Year!

I hope you all had a fun time last night I did absolutely nothing I went home and watched some movies didn't even drink, oh well. I don't think I'll make a new years resolution because I never follow through but hopefully I accomplish to maybe lose some weight and find a better paying job or at least advance where I'm currently at, oh and hopefully I get my MacBook Pro. Well I don't really have much to say I just wanted to wish all to have a great start to the new year!

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