Third Week of Nothingness...

So I've been laid off from my job right at the end of January 2010 and currently I'm laying on my bed, TV on, music playing, updating my Twitter and Facebook. I never really had a difficult time really finding a job, usually I would find something pretty quick and start as soon as possible. Blame it on the "recession" or whatever is going on, but I just feel lost right now. The time that I'm off work just had me thinking of what I'm doing with my life and how can I better it. The job was temporary but I really thought I would have at least another month, and that month of pay would have really helped me with my plans I've set for myself years ago of moving out of Iowa.

I am lucky that I decided to move back to my parents because they are having me at the house for free and the fridge is mostly all the time full. As much as I hate having them help me out so much financially and all of the troubles I would get myself into I can't explain how much I am thankful for them. I know a lot of people don't have the relationship with their parents as I do, most would force them out of the house or would ask for rent money just shy of a nice one bedroom apartment.

I'm not a big believer of fate or anything like that but maybe it's a good thing why all of this is happening. I mean maybe my time to move to the west coast isn't for me right now. I know that my sister isn't even really settled there yet so maybe once she gets more comfortable out there and everything is good for her, she's able to help me get better adjusted once I make that move. I don't know, I just feel like I should start seeing life as half full rather than half empty, I've always been such a pessimist and maybe with that mindset it's what's keeping my life standing still instead of "Moving Forward."

Another one of these posts... I need to cheer up!

I need to listen to more music, whenever I'm feeling kind of low I try to watch TV or movies or something but they never cheer me up even if I'm watching some kind of comedy. Music is something that always puts me in a good mood, especially this time where I feel like I'm failing with the situation I'm going through with not having a job and not making my move to the west coast yet. It's depressing I know people are telling me to move slow but I'm sick of moving THIS slow I'm ready to just run and go for it.

Birthday is at the end of the month and with me not having really much money is making me not even want to think or do anything for it. I hope to find something quick this is really putting a burden on me.

Taking a Break

Yes I am currently unemployed and I feel very odd about it, It's so weird waking up and knowing I don't have anything to do for the day. I just always had job since I've turned 18 and at times had held two jobs at once. So last week I haven't really tried that hard to find another job I decided to keep it low for a little bit. Now is a new week and I really got to find something right now, I've saved some money for my move but I'm still short on what I wanted to go down there with. I hate that I may have to push it back once again... It sucks because I've been planning this move for the longest time and things just keep suddenly coming up.

I feel stupid telling people that I'm planning on moving down there and not ever actually going out... I will do it though, I'm determined I just need some more money before doing it.