College Town Leads to Regrets

So this weekend was pretty interesting, going to a college party getting pretty wasted and breaking yet another iPhone. Me and a friend drove up to Ames, for a friend’s birthday party and also to compete in a beer pong tournament (I know very college…) that was also being held at the party but the rules were to be prompt and we were very late to the “event.”

It’s almost a rule each time I go there to Ames, to get a little more drinks in me than usual because for me being not the typical college student age, you kind of half to be in their mindset to communicate with some of them. While making a few rounds at the party greeting some people and making small chat we decided to head out. It was a good time to leave because once we left the place we saw cop cars there ready to stop the chaos that was going inside.

We headed downtown to try to meet my cousin and to hit up a few bars or clubs. While walking to the apartment she was at, I tripped on an uneven sidewalk. Trying so hard to keep myself from falling on my ass and looking like a fool I was struggling to stay up, which I probably look even more foolish than if I was to actually fall on my ass. Well my phone was in my hand and smacked it right into a brick wall still trying to stay on my feet. I have some pictures of the aftermath that I’ll also post at the bottom of this post.

I guess I’m actually not too upset about my phone, I think it’s now time to get the latest iPhone 4 so maybe it happened for that reason. I’m currently using now my older iPhone 3g and it’s ridiculously slow from the 3gs. I just know that I’ll probably be bitching about it until I get my iPhone 4 because I’m just so completely obsessed with my tech gadgets so being downgraded is really hurting me right now.

I Plan on Being America's Next Top Anthony Bourdain

I don’t know where to start today, I’ve been “out-ed” it seems… A friend came back to Iowa to visit, and seeing me again for only a couple minutes she sensed right away that I wasn’t as happy or high-spirited I was the last time we saw each other. No I’m not coming out of “the closet.” I’m not gay. I think I may be just a little depressed. Nothing to have to take medication for, I've just been well... not as happy with how my life has been going. It’s not what I planned for myself, but who really out there has everything they wanted? I wanted to be successful, I wanted to be out of Iowa, I wanted to be on my own and independent.

I’ve come to realize that I’m not good at planning. I planned moving to California last year but never thought of a PLAN B if PLAN A didn’t work and I think that’s where my downfall was. I was so determined and engrossed in the idea of moving that it left me blindsided, I didn’t even think of what I would do if I didn’t have the money by the time I was supposedly ready.

As of how I am today, I am working through a temp agency just trying to get my bills straighten out and literally living paycheck after paycheck. I seem to not be able to save any money with each paycheck and would have problems with buying things I really don’t need. I definitely took a few steps back from where I was. I don’t know where all my determination is, right now I am living comfortably at my parents house and I really can’t do this anymore.

Lately I’ve been watching a lot of Anthony Bourdain’s – No Reservation and also started reading “Eat, Pray, Love” by Elizabeth Gilbert and it got me really thinking that what I need to be doing is travel. I have the security right now of living at my parents’ house so why don’t I just try to save my money from work to do more traveling. I’ve always wanted to explore the world out there, looking at the sites, all the history, art, music, food, and people. I can use this time to go discover new places and, as cliché it sounds… discover myself.

Lindsay Lohan Please Be Normal Again

I don't know what it is, I've always had this little thing for Lindsay and with all of her flaws I still just can't stop but love her, maybe it's her raspy voice her wildness character and her don't give a f*ck bad ass chick. Whatever it is, I just seem to still have this celebrity crush on her. I do wish she was sane again because I would love to see her in more movies, she's a talented girl and it's sad when she lives her life the way she does and just ruins her career so easily and she just doesn't seem to understand that. Yesterday she was released from jail that she only spent 15 days when she was suppose to serve 90 days (of course being a celebrity you get that sort of treatment) and now she's heading to rehab to supposedly stick with 90 days which hopefully she does. As much as you are hoping that she comes out of this clean and sober again, in my opinion I think nothing will come out of it. I think her career has been over for a while and no one is giving her work. I still think Britney is still not all she was when she first started, fame can easily knock you down so and I think it goes to show that you have to have a strong will to be able to handle it. You can blame it on the parents that they were pushed in that career at such a young age but as an adult you are able to make up your own mind what you want in life and she's going in the wrong direction.

I do hope rehab works out for her, I would like to see her in movie again but right now I'm moving on to Emma Stone, she's my new raspy redheaded chick.