Five Minute Blog Entry

What can I say right now? I’m trying so much to try to save money that my weight loss and exercising has taken a backseat. I really want it all but it seems I can only focus on one thing and make it a priority… I guess it also doesn’t help that I’ve been getting pain in my foot again. I try to pride myself in still looking relatively young but I think I’m feeling my age with all the hiccups I come across. 

I’m really scared of possibly taking this European trip myself next year, I know I’ll be in a group tour that markets towards young solo travelers so I’m sure I wouldn’t be the only person who’s completely by themselves. Just reading people’s blogs and experiences though, I’m also a little nervous of being too old as well… I can drink like the rest of them but maturity level is also a thing and I don’t want a huge high school kind of experience either. 

It is getting a little late asking others right now to come on this trip with me, I had a friend who was really into it but being just let go of her job and wanting to go back to school it was very unlikely she would be able to save for it. I don’t think she reads this blog but I do always think she tries to take on way more than she can do which typically ends with let downs. There are just no small steps; you have to pace yourself when you want to get to that bigger goal you want. This was just a stream of consciousness entry and just putting down what I’m feeling at the moment.

Let It Go

People who holds grudges annoy the crap out of me. Why hold on to something for so long that overall doesn't affect how you live your life? I look at this way, for whatever the thing you're upset about would it still have any weight in a year? If not brush it off and move forward. 

This is something that has been bothering me lately. Get over it. 

Hate Handles

Not too long ago I took a picture with someone and they had my hand on my side. Then he mentioned my love handles... Let's just say it ruined my entire mood for the night even though I wasn't showing it in my face. I have lost a lot of weight, I'm aware of that but I'm still very much insecure about my body. I do brush off the compliments I get when people say I look great and congratulate me on my accomplishment but there's always moments like this one where I'm back to feeling down about myself. The acknowledgement of a known issue I was already aware of. 

I don't think I'll ever be completely happy with my body. It's the fat kid mentality that will carry on with me for probably the rest of my life. 

And please, I am not out here writing this entry to fish for compliments. I'm just here to state my problems areas which are my "love handles" and the rest of my body. 

Clean Up for 2016

Happy 2016! I've made some great changes in my life but I still hold on to a lot of the past. This isn't a mental thing I've held on to, I feel like I've already made that change. This is actually physical things. I'm not those hoarders you see on TLC or anything but I do hold on to a lot of crap that I just don't need. Why do I have floppy disks still? I have no devices that would read them or even I can almost say the same thing with CDs too... (It's almost there)

I don't really do resolutions because let's face it, we all don't follow through with them. I guess with it being a new year though I thought it would be a great start to have a clean living situation and get rid of things that I will never ever use. Most of the time I look at these things I have and ask "Do I really need or ever use this?" Most of the time, it's a "no."  Currently I have 3 bags of trash and there's still more to go through. It kind of feels good to let it go. I don't want anything for my birthday, the less "things" I have the better.

Okay I think I'm done for this entry. Hope all is doing well and let's make 2016 a clean one.