Tuesday, June 06, 2006

So Sick

More ranting from Otis here, man I hate where my life is going... I haven't done anything I know I'm young and able to do whatever I need to do before whatever happens, but man I'm just too scared to move and I really need that extra push to get me what I want. I know I have it pretty good... I guess... a free place to stay, pay very little for my car and phone, and my bills are what I charge on my credit card and from school. I feel that I rely on my parents too much and I want to stop. I want to live on my own do something get out of Des Moines do something!

Yet, I haven't finished college and I really don't know what I want to do. All I know is that I do not want to be stuck in Des Moines and stay at this crappy job that will never lead me anywhere. Oh god I feel it's going to be another story of my shitty job at EDS, but hey FINALLY someone at work, (let's call him cousin-in-law) have noticed something at work that I've noticed way back, (only because it use to be him that was "favorited" HAHA)... but THEY would select people that are not so great, to be somewhat above others that actually know what's going on. People wonder why I hate this job so much, yeah it's easy but I just hate the lack of respect I get there. Oh god I don't want to talk about this damn job, I get so frustrated everytime I sit at that desk knowing I can do better. I really need to look for something else!

Anyway just thinking about how my sister is in Cali makes me think I should do that too I need to leave this damn town, and just not turn back. Even if it does happen to be Des Moines is where I'm suppose to be I just need to experience living in a new environment.

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