Trust and So-Called "Friends"

I don’t get how people think I’m so naive. I know what’s going on… I’m not dumb. It surprises me people think that I’m so oblivious to everything, but in fact I know everything that is going on. I guess the issue is, is that I’m not a friend I’m just person that is cool to hang with. I don’t need to hang out with you, obviously that is why I don’t choose to hang out with you because trust is not there… I’ll go out drinking with you because I do like drinking but “friends” is not what I would consider you to be. Perspective I consider a friend that is there for me, who is willing to share their intimate feeling, don't think of me as a "friend" think of me as a colleague because obviously I'm not a person who you can trust. I'm a person that is pretty good with secrets (when it comes to friends) but now that I'm not considered as one I should just let everything "slip."

I can go without these people in my life because they are not true... I don't understand why I feel I need to protect these people it's not like they are looking out for me... I'm so broken, I wish I was a stronger person sometimes instead of a confidant.