Friday, February 18, 2011

Horrible Nightmare

I didn't sleep well last night, I had one of those dreams where it felt so real that you wake up in pain. I had a dream last night that my mom was diagnosed with cancer and she was just deteriorating every time I went to visit her. It's upsetting because I've lost both of my grandpa's from lung cancer it was just hard seeing them suffer through it. I remember it was only a time frame of may half a year (probably less...) where he would go to his treatments of radiative therapy with really no results at all. He did try everything to fight it but it was inevitable. I hope soon they will find a real treatment for it.

My dream pretty much reliving that pain of watching my grandpa go through all of that except it was my mother and as I love my grandpa, it just seem to hurt more when it's your mom. By the end of the dream she did actually die and it started with same ritual when someone dies how everyone comes to the house to show respect and prepare for the funeral. I woke up and tears were coming down my face uncontrollably until I got myself to calm down realizing it was all a dream.

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