I Love You Porgy

Everybody that knows me, knows that I just love females with great vocals. I only saw this performance by Christina probably a year ago but it was a performance she did at the 2008 Grammys covering the great and late Nina Simone's, 'Porgy.'

I love the old school Jazz, like Billie Holiday, Ella Fitzgerald, Louis Armstrong and Frank Sinatra to say the least. When you can actually hear and identify the instruments being played makes it just seem like you're actually there. Well I know that Christina is a pop artist and sadly this isn't the type of music she typically puts out there but just with her voice with this song just makes it sound sweet in the ear.

Amy Winehouse... Rest in Peace

I'm very upset about her death today. I'm not as hurt as when Michael Jackson died for obvious reasons but I really was keen on her music and her unique voice. I love her 'Back to Black' album and I remember I would have the whole album on repeat constantly in my iTunes for weeks. Seeing her in the media, I just find it completely devastating watching her go from an old soul that has the love of jazz music to her alcoholism and whatever narcotics she was on that week. Also seeing new images of her wither away to just skin and bones. I really love her music and not just her "Rehab" song which I'm pretty sure everyone is making jokes of the irony of the message in the song to her death.

I was really rooting for her to get better and come out with new music that I will love just as much as 'Back to Black' but unfortunately that didn't happen but I will remember her more for the music rather than her personal life and her relationship with alcohol and drugs. I still love you Amy! Rest in Peace.

Want

I've had too much time recently to just sit and think and it's driving me insane. My week consist of going to work, home and dinner, then fuck around a while until it's time to sleep and do it all over again. My past weekends have been completely empty and being alone just gets me thinking of what I'm doing wrong and how I should be doing this and doing that. My own company is the worse company I just can't stand it anymore.

Just thought to add a picture to grab interest...
But now I'm calling, tweeting, and texting to find out what people are doing and offer myself to do various errands and even helping my cousin move out of her apartment. I don't know what this feeling is all about but even when I'm around people I still feel lonely. Maybe it's lack of attention I'm getting and feeling like people aren't happy when they see me or would want to see me when I'm trying to reach out to others.

I'm feeling a little selfish as I just said that because other people have drop their problems on me and of course what I do is simply be there for them and try to give sympathy and advice or help when they need it. I really don't know where else to go from here and don't know how to close this entry so I'm leaving it as that.