Workout Mode is Still Going Strong

Goodness, it's been so long that I've made an entry on here! I really don't know what to talk about. I've at my new position at work for a couple months now and I'm already kind of getting bored of it. I didn't realize there was so much data entry involved. I've still been on the whole workout thing with Insanity, which by the way I have completed all of 63 days of it.

So now work has this whole "Get Fit" thingy so of course I want to be part of that. I didn't even give myself a break from Insanity program at all. After my final fit test I've done on the last Sunday I just went ahead the next day did week one of Insanity again and still going at it. I'm going through the calendar again but skipping the Fit Test days and doing cardio abs after each pure cardio routine. I just feel like I should step up my game and I don't need to check my status of how I do on the fit test anymore... Well maybe I will think about it on my 3rd run. Also I'm going to skip one week of the first month so I can do a complete month 2 just in time before China. I'm really dedicated with trying to be a better person physically but I still can't diet all that well.

Yes I am counting calories using MyFitnessPal but there will be days where I would just say, "eff it, it's a special occasion" and would eat more than my allotted calories. It's definitely not all the calories, I would most of the time be under calorie but what I'm eating is just not good for your body. I consume a lot of sodium and bad fatty foods. I really cannot stop myself from going back to it, which I know if you're good at portion control you can still be okay but I'm not so great with that either. I have lost a little over 20lbs now and of course I do want to lose more so that's why I have continued the Insanity routine. Just thinking about skipping a day I would feel so damn lazy so I always force myself to do it. Even on my Sunday "Rest Days" I feel really lazy so there will be weekends that I would jump on the treadmill for a few minutes to get some kind of workout in. I really want to lose the weight I've gained in the past few years, going through what I've been through and actually paying attention to the scale have made me realize how bad I let myself go. I really want to continue this journey, hopefully I can be at a point where I'm comfortable to take off my shirt in public. I still feel very far away from that...