Five Minute Blog Entry

What can I say right now? I’m trying so much to try to save money that my weight loss and exercising has taken a backseat. I really want it all but it seems I can only focus on one thing and make it a priority… I guess it also doesn’t help that I’ve been getting pain in my foot again. I try to pride myself in still looking relatively young but I think I’m feeling my age with all the hiccups I come across. 

I’m really scared of possibly taking this European trip myself next year, I know I’ll be in a group tour that markets towards young solo travelers so I’m sure I wouldn’t be the only person who’s completely by themselves. Just reading people’s blogs and experiences though, I’m also a little nervous of being too old as well… I can drink like the rest of them but maturity level is also a thing and I don’t want a huge high school kind of experience either. 

It is getting a little late asking others right now to come on this trip with me, I had a friend who was really into it but being just let go of her job and wanting to go back to school it was very unlikely she would be able to save for it. I don’t think she reads this blog but I do always think she tries to take on way more than she can do which typically ends with let downs. There are just no small steps; you have to pace yourself when you want to get to that bigger goal you want. This was just a stream of consciousness entry and just putting down what I’m feeling at the moment.

An Email to You.

There’s no fixing your past, that’s just it. So you have limp leg for the rest of your life, but you’re still able to walk. People have flaws you need to just live with them and move on. Dwelling on a problem leads to weakness and people will feel sorry for you. Don’t make people around you feel sorry for you, you got to let it be known that you’re capable of handling yourself. People will take advantage of your weakness and use you, knowing that you are so eager to find someone to commit and tell all how you feel. Just think of your child, don’t make them see your flaws. They learn from you and would feel it would be alright to grow up being inept.

I hope you get some perspective on what I just said… You just need to hear it as blunt as it may seem.

Fake Baking...

So yes... That's what I've been doing, I know it's a very superficial thing to do but it's actually relaxing to lay in that warm light, I don't know I have other reasons why I'm going, but I don't feel like sharing that. I thought the whole process is weird you lay in a bed naked for a couple minutes and that's that. I've only went 2 times and my whole torso is burnt! My arms and legs are fine but I feel so uncomfortable when sometimes just putting on a shirt... When does this process stop burning and I'll just tan. I don't usually burn except the time I was in Mexico (that was expected) but man I guess places that don't really see the sun at all just burns like immediately.